Thanks for the replies. IDK why my replies didn’t show up.

I called him today. And begged. And he really… couldn’t even say he loves me anymore. He said he’s so much happier now being alone. In the end I couldn’t take it anymore, I told him if he doesn’t want me to appear in front of him again it’s okay I just need a word from him. he didn’t say a thing. There was such a long silence it felt like forever.

In the end, I just said goodnight and left. There wasn’t any point holding onto the silence. I was so afraid that he’d say ‘yes’; which means he wants me to never appear again. But it wasn’t a no either.

I broke down. So bad. I think there’s this one girl. but again i think i might just be paranoid.