Hello,
I’m sorry that you’ve suffered to this extent but I am very glad that you have reached out for help. Only when we’re willing to admit that we need help can we begin to change. I want you to know that the less you care for yourself, the less you can help others. Including your family. You, above all others, need your own love and acceptance. When you truly accept and love yourself, you will be able to give so much more to the ones around you. Your feelings of being stuck in this is just life giving you an opportunity to grow into the person you want to be. But first, you need to start taking care of yourself. Eat right, exercise, educate yourself, and learn to start bettering the person you are. It’s essential to know what you want, who you want to be, and to know where you’re heading if you keep this up.

Secondly, fighting will never resolve issues or make you feel better. It’s a bottomless pit of anger and pain. So, don’t contribute to those arguments anymore. Speak calmly and respectfully and ask they do the same if speaking to you. The moment you lose your temper, you give up any chance of a peaceful outcome. Speak your feelings peacefully and compassionately. This will serve as a lesson that will strengthen you if you succeed.

And lastly, step back and just relax. I know this is stressful but stress is only making it harder for you to do what is right. Breathe and relax and take immediate steps to make life simpler. Start small but know where you want to be. I don’t want to overwhelm you with words that only grow more repetitive. It’s time to start doing and time to start taking responsibility for yourself.

thepathofaronin.blogspot.com is my personal blog. Look at it and reach out if you need help. Don’t hold it in.

I hope this helps in any way.
Be strong and know you’re not alone.