Dear Nick,

How are you doing?

I’m living fine now. Besides occasional sobbing, I am actually living quite well.

I don’t know if what I’m doing is right. I don’t know if what I’m feeling is right. But I want to live on. I want to keep moving forward. I started going out with people, eventhough I don’t know them well. I started bonding with my housemate and I started having regular conversation with my old friends.

One of my friend is going through a break up, the same day as me. And it made me realise that even when all love stories are different, the pain is the same. The horror and fear is the same.

You’re a medical student like me. Our studies is tough and it’s important for us to focus. I’m having my final exams in 5 months time. And I promised myself that after New Year, I would place my entire heart into my studies. I hope you will too.

I’ve realised that he left me and created an empty space. It is my choice to fill that empty space with misery or happiness. I had tried placing misery. And now I will fill it up with happiness.

Meditation really help. The first 2 people that replied to me; one of them said to breathe. It’s really helps. Taking deep breaths, and keep on breathing. It lessen the pain although I know only time can fully take the pain away from me.

With love,
Jade