It’s ok human! You made a mistake perhaps, but you understand now what you want. So get over beating yourself up, that will help no one. Don’t let “guilt” ruin your true love and possible future. Go with the good feelings and just try not to ever cause yourself those bad feelings again. it is passed. It was a learning experience for YOU. THAT’S ALL! Smile and feel the love that you cherish grateful that you found the “right” one through such difficult trials, that’s life. Be free! We are here to experience ALL sorts of crazy things and you have ruined NOTHING!! So it’s OK!! : )