Sometimes when we encounter painful situations, we do our best to distract ourselves to ease the pain like alcohol, gambling or another relationship. The trouble is, once that distraction is gone, we are in a worst position than before because now we have to deal with the crutch as well as the initial problem. Since most of what you wrote focus on relationship, my question is how are the other aspects of your life at the moment? Are you in a career that you are happy with? Do you have a hobby you enjoy that helps you ease the stress of everyday life? Do you have a group of friend that you can confide in that aren’t potential relationship partners?