Thank you for patience Maggie, I hope it does not seem like I am going in circles here. I am just truly trying to make sense of things.

Yes, parting ways feels wrong to me, in my heart, and I feel that he feels this way too which is why neither of us is out looking for another apartment even though there may be a waiting list to be on one. (So ultimately one of us will have to make a move)

Yes, he is taking things out on me. Yes, he does not want to hurt me.

I am trying to apply some Buddhism ways of thinking to my situation and this is the best I am coming up with…

I may do well to focus more on loving myself.

I may do well to stop clinging onto my desires for the relationship that I wish we would be.

I wish I could expand on those two or add more to that thinking.

Also, I have never parted ways with a man that I thought was right for me and me for him and he felt the same. This is what seems wrong to me. How does that happen? Maybe I need to start a new post with that being the topic?

Thank you again for listening and sharing!