Thank you so much everyone!

Yesterday I had a moment of weakness and made plans with him for after work. Paint by Numbers, wine and a movie. When I got off work I called him and lo and behold-he was too tired. I cried home. I paint by numbered and drank wine and watched a movie with my sister after my daughter went to bed and had a really great time anyway. You are all right. It was nice to experience a relationship again, but I deserve better. I am glad I left. I do still care very much for him though, and I hope that he does recover and who knows… I’m still allowed to be a romantic!

When I started dating I went on 20 something dates and met so many wonderful people, beautiful men, smart men, rich men, not so rich men, artistic men, whatever, but this Boy was the only one I wanted to pursue. There is just something different. He isn’t the prettiest, the smartest, the tallest, the most packed, the richest, the most artistic, the most alluring, the sexiest…he just feels right.

Him blowing me off yesterday was maybe what I really needed to cement this. It doesn’t feel right to not be respected or loved. Christine, your words really hit home. I’m not sure whether I will be cutting off complete contact, but…I sort of had an epiphany or woke up from a slumber of stupidity last night, I can handle myself now. Hopefully this feeling lasts.

Thanks, everyone 🙂