My lovely Lapedrezza

Reading your story, I could find similarities to some of my experiences.
Sometimes people touch us deeply, and even though they turn us into a sad and depressed person, instead of being confident and happy, we don’t want to let go of them. We think “If I just show him this side to my personality, this fun part of me, this lovely thing I do etc. he will eventually feel the same for me.” He wont. I am sorry to tell yout his, but he will never choose you.

From what you say, he has now cheated on two women with you. So both times, you were the other woman. But you deserve to be his one true love, no? You deserve to come first, right? If you let him use you like that, in his mind he knows that when he feels lonely or has sexual needs, he can always have you. If that’s what you want, go for it. But I hear a lot of pain in your words. You have to distance yourself from him, focus on yourself. He is harmful to your heart and soul and he – again – did not even choose you when you and him were free.

“We accept the love we think we deserve.” – Think about that statement. You deserve more.

I wish you all the best.

xx
Helen