If only it were that easy…

So I decided that I really love my boyfriend and even though B and I had a wonderful relationship, one of the best I’ve ever had, me and my boyfriend share a different relationship full of love.

I told my friend yesterday where I stood. I told him that I approached him with the intention of finding closure and perhaps be friends again. I also mentioned that I was surprised to hear that he liked me, and that he wanted to date me when it’s been 3 years already. I told him that I really loved my bf and that if he needed to not talk to me in order to move on, I understand.

My friend hasn’t replied to me.. I hate to say it, but I did the exact same thing to him yesterday as I did three years ago. He gave me the gift and I tried to return it. He told me he wanted to date me today, and I told him that I loved my boyfriend. I feel like such an awful person.. I never imagined I would hurt him twice in a row. I am the girl every guy would hate. 🙁

I’m feeling very sad and stressed right now, but I deserve it. I just have to accept the fact that I cannot be friends with B anymore and move on. I remember such good times between us.. if only I could go back in time. He will always be my best and worst memory.. my one regret.

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• This reply was modified 9 years, 10 months ago by xxeeveexx.