Hello, I’m still not sure how to use this site. I have learned so much just reading comments. Gracie I understand how you feel, I’m also going through something very similar. And the feeling of abandonment has come to the surface. My English is not always the best, I grew up in Germany. I understand about not communicating with someone that you care about. Learning to let go in stages, will free you, so can and move on. You are going through the stages of grieving, which are needed. This has been part of a learning experience for you, learning to take care of yourself, and you deserve more than just crumps. Warm greetings, a fellow traveler.