Jade, I think you’re taking this very hard. But it’s not for anyone to say it’s foolish. This is how you feel, so feel it.

I think you idea of sending your love now to a future him is sweet, and expressing yourself in this way may just give you a measure of peace, which is something you clearly crave. So why not? Send your love for him three years into the future, and then try to let go of this need of having him acknowledge it. It is your love. You can treasure it, even if he doesn’t.

Metta to you in your pain.