Thank you all for your insight. Now that it’s been a week since the initial chat and I am less consumed with direct and painful emotions I can see clearly that this is decision I have to make and want to make. The tough part is living together and staying in the same bed for the next few months before he flies home… It will also be a hard time as he is trying to make me change my mind and so is his mum – but thank you all for reaffirming to me that this is my decision and I am entitled to it.