You are validated!! What I am learning is that as soon as I open my mouth (even in a supportive environment) I expose myself to other people’s perceptions. What I really want is to believe how I feel about something and rest in that but even under the best conditions when I leave myself open to other’s opinions it’s like leading with my chin (boxing term.)

I still have many defeatist thinking patterns that need to be changed. I am getting exactly what I work for because everything is a “self-fulfilling prophecy.” Old habits die hard. What a waste of time I have used to think negative thoughts. I have hurt myself and my potential and happiness through my own thinking.

Please help me God, Buddha, Allah……