Hi there.

First of all, I wish you the best.
I signed up specifically for this site, after reading what you said about being a loser just to tell you this:

You’re not a loser. It’s NOT easy to walk into a random workplace , introduce yourself, and put in a CV. People’s #1 fear is usually public speaking.

If you feel you need a break to go to your parents for a month, do it.
Medications will probably help, but decide if you really need it after your one month break. Breaks always help.
Read good books, walk outside, do things that make you happy.

Your husband doesn’t mean it. He’s been supporting you fro SO long. Sometimes its just hard to see our partners go through a mess or sadness. So we quickly (as men) say things like “Hey how hard can it be, just do x”. Because we are solution-oriented – and its tough to see your loved one sad. We are not trying to say you are a loser or anything. Everyone has their own strengths & weaknesses, and everyone knows that. He loves you.. So don’t worry. Have some confidence. Think about all the happy and nice things in your life every day, and don’t focus on the bad – at all. Keep a gratitude journal 🙂 . Do exercises that help you feel good

(and in the end if you need the meds, don’t feel bad, theres nothing wrong with using some. you can always ween off it if you change your mind)

Much love & good luck.

• This reply was modified 9 years, 7 months ago by Albika.