Anita,
Thank you for your response, my relationship with my parents is complicated and was better when I was younger so no they would not have rejected me and were not repulsed by me and sure I fought to earn their love. That is, until I wanted a different life than what they wanted and now we get in huge fights all the time. They may still love me but they sometimes do reject who I am and I guess I don’t fight for their approval or love anymore.

But I do not completely understand how this relates to me situation?

Thanks,
Laure