Update:

I went to work yesterday and to be honest I couldn’t keep the toughts of her out of my head, altough I keept thinking about the job and about the stock market and how I’m going to pursue it.

Then when I came home and went to bed, I decided to try something new. I put a hypnosis mp3 on youtube. It was about healing a broken hearth, and even tough I fel asleep, I woke up this morning and it didn’t bother me that much. Like, I still feel a bit bad about it all, but it feels like it’s somewhere back. Like the pain moved backwards, and I don’t feel it in my chest anymore, and it’s much easier for me. Altough I still love that girl and miss her, I feel a bit better.

As I mentioned in another post, I’ll keep concentrating on myself and working on my life, single. I really don’t have the urge to pursue other girls, and it wouldn’t be fair to them.

Just don’t know how to deal with the toughts that pop randomly into my head of her beeing with another guy. I know I don’t know the real story, and don’t know if she’s with someone else or not, but my mind keeps putting those images into my head and I really want it to stop cause it sucks.

Ty again all for reading and understanding. <3