“i am sabotaging my own desire for a relationship by desperately wanting a relationship. i am confused about how to actually actually realistically love myself so that i don’t feel such a desperate need to love/be loved another. i don’t understand where this desire stems from and i am having a really difficult time finding that answer. i am also having a really difficult time figuring out how to effectively get myself to not need a relationship so badly.”

This speaks to me so well. I am having the same issues. I am trying to find it within in to me to get better, feel better, love myself. Sometimes it feels like a nearly impossible task! It’s such a project. I know it’s worth all of the hard work, sometimes I just feel like I have no idea what I’m doing or what I’m up against. Maybe it’s just a matter of time?