Hi Rose…thanks for your reply…myself and her meet on wednesdays for coffee and we chat, she is broken up about us…and so am i ,, we both cant seem to let go,,,we tell each other we love each other…and then go our separate ways for another week..i think this must be the worst type of breakup…as in a normal breakup, one person leaves and the others left devistated and suffering.. but in this situation, we both keep comming together and holding each other..as e cant stand the pain of being apart..ive decided im going to write my thoughts in here every few days, just so i can find some release from the high emotion of it all…

today is a bad day… inside im dying…but i just keep going on, i realise, that as high as love takes me , the opposite applies, and i am falling into darkness…the pain…some days are better than others,,,me and her often talk and share..

i wonder if not being together if is self imposed,,, and if i can break out of this prison of the mind…

i wish you the best rose, i hope you find peace..