There’s nothing wrong with missing your ex and it’s okay to still hang on to hope, as it is also normal to love her and miss still, you are grieving a loss. I still love my ex very very much and I wish I could work things out with her but she doesn’t communicate and that’s a problem. It is the reason why our relationship ended was because she didn’t want to tell me her feelings, something that I felt was 100% important to me because when I love someone, I want to know their feelings about things that way I can make all the right decisions so that we can heed with caution. Unfortunately I was imperfect in her eyes and I victimized her/abused her mentally because I was unable to make all the right decisions when I had no way or ability to contact her at the time. Although I did try through text message but she didn’t seem to care or respond. I still don’t know after 4 years why she decided to hate me. 1 thing is for sure and is the 100% truth, is that I never had a relationship with anybody else/cheated or even had intimacy with another individual since our relationship began in January of 2010 up until this very day. I know that in my heart and I know that I could honestly look her in the eyes and tell her that too. I saved my heart and love for someone who used to love me and then one day, she decided that I was the enemy. Guess I’ll never know all the details until she is able to sit down and talk to me because everything has been mis-construed that I’m this bad person when I know my intentions were pure. All I was ever wanted was to know what happened and where I stood in her life but wanting that was a bad thing in here eyes. That is my assumption anyway but one thing is for sure, our relationship was never based on sex.

Otherwise I would have found another woman right away but I kept my promise to her bc obviously it wasn’t about sex or I would have just gone and slept with another woman this entire time. I’ve stayed loyal to her all these years and sadly I’ve got nothing to show for it but I take my partial responsibility because I didn’t have to be single all these years up to this point, or save myself for her either but I had truly wanted to because I had told her a long time ago that I was going to marry her. Anyway, That is my cross to carry now and I chose to stay loyal all these years. So Rodrigo, you are not the only one who struggles, I feel & understand your pain. I work through the pain by staying positive, loving and optimistic that everything happens for a reason. Maybe it’s to make us grow and to open our eyes a little bit more, so that we can be better prepared for love the next time around. I have faith that everything will work out the way it needs to. I know someday you will also find happiness again, you just got to believe and stay positive that things will work out. Never lose hope…((( Hugs )))

All the best,

Elle