Dear Blessing,

Really do not know what to write and what not to… I have a mixed feeling today, one part of me feeling good and one part of me not feeling good. Do not know what is it about. I am not a bad soul, then why do I have these challenges to face. Anyways there isn’t anything to worry about but still not feeling happy. One moment I am feeling to high and the other moment. I feel so bad and sad when my husband does not reply to my message, I am so much dependent on him, but I got your message to apply the EAR Concept. I have promised myself to be calm and positive all throughout my relation. Because listening is really important in the relation. I do listen, but i end up judging him more. While he is telling me something. I do not like changes, he has not changed though, but he is being alert now coz I can feel he is hurt by the things happen between both of us every now and then. Now he is just trying to stay away a bit so as not be hurt later on. because what is happening, we fight, we make up and then again after good lively days we again end up fighting. I do not even know what I am writing to you Blessing. I am just writing whatever is coming up in my mind. the problem with me is I want things to be alright next moment of the fight, i cannot put up with the changes and bitterness the fight leaves, and we stupid guys are fighting over such a petty issue, which has no value at all… Anyways let it be, I think he is hurt, because sometime back he deleted his so called online ex gf from his facebook, they had not been talking ever since we got married, but i mentioned her twice in our conversation and he deleted her because he does not want to have frictions between us because of something which does not exist between us anymore, but he did not like that either. Once a week, we have got one or the other issue to fight about which are not that big at all.
Blessing, to be honest I do not know what I am writing to you… I just do not know, I am writing what is coming in to my mind. Thank you Blessing for being there. I have got someone who can listen to all what i have in my mind, and in return I know I am not being judged. I can express openly what is running in my mind, I feel so good, that everyday I can pour my heart out my feelings out.. I am not a bad soul, people in our group here calls us love birds, but that charm is going away, I do not want to lose that … I do not know whether is going away or not, last saturday only we had our ME time, we spent it so beautifully, it was so romantic.. wE never had such time together before. Anyways thanks GOD for those beautiful memories. I do not know how to take these changes after the fight, anyways I hope all goes well. I will be able to have that affection and madness back in my relation.
Hope he will continue to feel, love is a beautiful feeling…
We used to thank alot to eachother for being in each other’s life and now I think he thinks other way.
He is scared because of the frequent fights we have been into.
for this moment, thanks for considering me as your friend.Thank you for being there. Thank you is really a small word, what you are doing to me in return.. You are answering everything, what i have in my mind, stupid weird thoughts.

I love you Blessing.

Have a blessed day.