Hey Good Morning Blessing,

How are you feeling? Why do you take too much caffeine, I have reduced that too, being a typical Indian I am too much addicted too Tea. And after coming here I have started taking too much coffee, which sometimes i feel is not good. In India, I used to take hot water quite often and now i need it more. Anyways take good care of yourself, i have realized off lately that health is truly a wealth, initial it was just a phrase for me, or can say did not understand the true meaning of this, but now i feel that yes, if you are healthy , you are capable of doing anything in this world.

Coming back to me, the way he started car he normally does not do that. It could be just that I was getting late and he was waiting for me in the car, he does not like me getting late, everytime, i have noticed, whenever I get late for work or for parties he loses his temper sometimes or make faces. Anyways so I assumed probably he did that because I was delaying or could be just like that. It was not intentional.. God knows.I could have said, but I felt something bad, and i did not want to fight, thats alright but yes if he will repeat that again, I am surely gonna mention this.

Coming to the lunch date: yes he does that very often, and if say you just mention and you forget after that, he says why do you make me feel as if something has been said than I have to follow that by any means. I mean i do not know how to take that, initially i had so much trouble dealing with it, because I am one person who would say something only if i mean to. but thats fine, probably he says to make me happy for the moment. because he knows due to different working schedules we do not get time for eachother and these days I am not even expressing the anger. I am behaving well, so probably because of that he said we will hve lunch together. He though came yesterday, because he wanted to have a hair cut from the near by market and we met in my lunch break and had coffee together, that’s is why I have stop reacting and I am ready to go with the flow. With the positive approach.

Coming to my pregnancy : I have had abortion couple of months back or and yes I am not prepared for the pregnancy at the moment, do not know. If it is really that, i do not have such feeling though, because i know how it feels when you are pregnant. Anyways I am not getting that feel, and moreover, we both are not prepared, my husband does not want me to go for abortion at the same time he does not want to have a baby. wE have never discussed on this because we know we are settling down now, it will take its own time, to settle down financially to a new country and now emotionally and mentally as well we both needs to be stable. So that’s is why, he might call my mother in law here but I am really not prepared. I know I am turning 30 this year and this is the age to have, because my husband is 34 already. But i do not want to believe in those myths and I want to be in healthy state of mind to have a baby.
So probably next year, when we both would be financially, mentally and emotionally settled. but I am really worried and scared of abortion, but the last one i got thru was medical abortion and had so much, so we both are afraid of that. But believe me, i do not have such feeling, normally they never get delayed and this time its just got delayed by 3 days so lets see. Crossing my fingers for that.

Thank you blessing for being there.
Take good care of yourself darling.

Looking forward to hear from you