Thanks Anita for replying and helping me understand that. I have to agree with you on that, its just hard for me since I have been like this for so long ya know? Well the tougher thing that I need help with is the person I hid for 21 years. Most of my family doesn’t agree with who I am, especially my dad. I grew up in a family and town where I was taught that same-sex couples is a bad thing and that its not ok to be gay. Well I knew that ever since I was a little girl that I liked girls and not guys. I hid it for so long because I grew up living with my dad and I didn’t want to be a disappointment. But the truth is I like girls. The problem with me hiding it for so long is I would always be with a guy to make other people (my dad, family) happy. But I was never happy being with a guy. Yes, a few of the relationships I had weren’t bad at all, but I was never happy. Because I knew that this isn’t me and that I like girls. I felt disgusting and uncomfortable every time I was with a guy (mainly in a sexual way.) It didn’t feel right to me, but I did it because I didn’t want to be a disappointment for being a lesbian. I didn’t want my dad being upset with me. I cant hide it anymore. I came out about 2 weeks ago. I am slowly letting people I can trust know that this is who I really am and that I am truly happy for once. I am dating a girl and have been with her for 5 months now. She is my world and means everything to me. But when my dad found out I was dating a girl he was being so rude to me and saying really mean stuff about her and I. I couldn’t take it, my own father is disappointed in me. He made me feel like because I like girls that I have some sort of disease or something. When I was younger I said things to him that made him question my sexuality. But anyway, what do I do about not being upset when people I love are so judgmental of who I am and letting people know that this is who I am? That I am really truly happy and that I am no longer afraid or ashamed to show it?