Thank you so much everyone for your input, I was still quite insecure with many trust issues before dating him, but I didn’t go to the extreme of going through his things I thought I would give it a shot and try to trust, so of course I’ve been imperfect and undesirable in many ways which has been unfair, though not once have I thought about cheating or had eyes for absolutely anyone else, I wanted to improve my issues so I and him could be better together I really haven’t had any other relationship to compare it to so was starting from scratch! Neither of us I believe should have got involved with each other, I agree that I need to take a break from any kind of romantic relationship, it’s not a thought in my mind after this.

I really knew I had work to do but after being with him I see the extent of the things I need to do in order to ever be in a genuine loving healthy relationship, guess I need to be in one with myself first!

Thank you so much again for the input..
Lots of love xx