Dear Anita,

Its been long time I was away….I have been thinking and thinking about everything. When I analyze my situation, I separated my current married bf and my marriage. I decided to work on both separately. I thought my life is screwed up and also my marriage. May be I am filling the gap through my married bf and hence decided let’s keep both issues separate.I went to a psychiatrist, a known person through a friend. Told her abt my marriage problem and then she asked me everything from my childhood. I told her everything that I have mentioned here,expect the married bf. She has been supportive and I have been honest with her. She told me I have always been deprived of love n care. She asked n number of questions abt mrrg n I n she realize I have no attraction towards my husband and seems d same with him. So such a big disconnect. I told my husband I am seeing a psychiatrist and we need to sort out. Initially he was not ready,but later out of frustration he agreed to meet. He said he doesn’t have time as he has to go to gym after his ofc n all. Now I’ll wait fo him to take initiative and get involved. He had also gone out for vacation with his friends over weekend but dint get time to participate in this problem. I dint say anything. I am anyways staying with my parents since I walked out of my house. The psychiatrist said she will listen to his part as its imp and I also agree. He might have to open up.
Thanks for being all help. I will be back soon. Please share your valuable inputs if any.