Anita,

I agree with you on the fact that once you become conscious and mindful (“enlightened”) of what’s real and what’s not, there is usually no going back. When you know better, you’ll do better.

Life was definitely simpler when we were younger – blissful, pure, innocent, untainted by society. Now it takes a journey of a thousand miles to un-condition our way of thinking. Some people are lucky to have “escape the matrix” while the majority are not so fortunate. I find myself moving towards a path that you have chosen to follow as well. Sometimes I feel bad for those that just live life with no idea of the reality, but then sometimes I feel jealous of them for living happily in oblivion. But as you have mentioned, that’s the path we chose.

As someone who dwells a lot in his mind, I believe that too much is not good for me. We are social beings after all, and thrive on togetherness. Since we are emotional creatures, how do you deal with feelings like loneliness and love if you don’t seek out anyone’s company? Do you think or fear that others will not understand you, hence the isolation?

I know these might be sensitive questions so please do not take it the wrong way. I’m just trying to understand.

James