Dear Anita,

I’ve been trying to apply what you’ve told me on this past day and I must say your words really helped, yet I still find resistance in some of the beliefs. Maybe I just need some more time because for sure I won’t change a bad habit in one day right?
The funny thing is that the guy texted me yesterday,at first I felt a little bit angry about him only saying something a week after, but then I realized that in the end he didn’t do anything wrong, he was never rude or bad to me. He did happen to not have me as a priority at all. He just happens not to be what I’m looking for. So I answered and checked how is he doing and told him that I hope he is doing well. I’m really happy to have had this attitude of realizing a pattern and telling myself the truth and act accordingly to what is there, to what is real. I hope that he finds happiness to be honest. It’s just a bit sad that he wasn’t what I expected. But now I know better.
I also thought that I tend to think that people need to be happy by themselves before they can be with someone else. But I always have those moments that I feel lonely, and then I have troubles to discern if it’s me that just wants love, or if I’m not happy with my life/myself. But since I started “digging” on this and dealing with it I just found myself to be really happy and grateful for everything, everything that whether good or bad shaped me into who I am. And I even had some people telling me that I seem so genuinely happy these days, which was quite pleasant to hear to be honest. The real question is am I not being too eager to have that connection? Shouldn’t I be more patience towards it? Sometimes I do feel like I want it too much.

Thank you so much for your help

Rookie