… that’s a whole lot of anger going on there. I feel for you. It’s painful and hurtful to have to work with people you don’t gel with or you don’t feel comfortable with – it’s like they’re rejecting you and that really really hurts , so you reject them back…

or reject them first so they can’t reject you, which causes problems in itself.

I’m glad you are out of that place. Dust yourself off, give yourself a loving smile and on to the next adventure.

At work here I love and am loved here but in some strange way I can’t feel one of them. You know like – you see them all chatting together and they stand together and I would be perfectly welcome to stand there too but for some unknown reason I can’t bring myself to stand there…. maybe the fear is a fear of rejection but there’s no way they would reject me – they love me… but I fear deep down that perhaps they’ll see that I’m some kind of uninteresting fraud… or want something from me that I cant deliver… so I pretend it’s me not interested in them. although I’m not sure that’s me winning in that situation. Worth having a wee look at I think