Hello nacm86, I am happy to hear about your self exploration journey – I have been in the same situation for last couple of years and I had 2 long term serious relationships where I realized I was attracting the same type of guys and my relationship patterns were also similar – they both lasted for about 2 years or more and finally I was shaken from a dream state. I had to think about what I was doing and what I was looking for 🙂

In my experience, before we start looking for a soulmate – its important to connect with your own soul. We have to love and nurture ourselves first and become fearless and content and strong that we are good enough for ourselves 🙂 Once you reach to that level where you are thriving in your life – you are smiling from your lungs – right kind of people will start coming into your life – once you raise the vibrations of your own life state ( I am sure you understand what I mean! since you are a spiritual person too!!) It has helped me a lot and now I see, how much I have transformed and how much my relationships have changed! In my experience, when we don’t look for it – that’s when it shows up and I took myself on dates plenty of times in last 6 months – for a movie and for dinners or even for beach walks 🙂 ! I know it sounds crazy but that’s when you know how you want to be treated in your relationships! I didn’t date ME 🙂 and now all I attract is good people who also want to contribute and uplift me 🙂 Before it wasn’t there cause I guess my belief was wrong somewhere that I have to give a lot of love or prove certain things in certain ways in a relationship to receive love from the other person….we all know it but the root cause might be something different – check your vibration and check where your relationship with yourself is and take it from there!

Hope this helps 🙂