Dear Jack,

I totally identify with your words. I have felt them too so often. I have cried and bashed myself up more than I can remember. Confident people in particular made me feel “omg, they’re so annoying and they act like they know everything!” but truth be said, the problem wasnt them. The problem was with me – I was comparing their outside with my inside. I do this a lot when i see thin, fit people in particular – I feel really unattractive somehow haha. There have been instances too with the super-achievers in my UG program – amazing grades, internships, bodies, bucket loads of confidence and there was simple, doubtful me. I dont mind it though now. This simple girl is fine the way she is, no matter how many times she falls and doubts herself.

Lets face it, we all fall and crumble, then get up, go on. Without realizing, we become stronger that way. Even during that internship, though i came out fine in the end, i used to have anxiety attacks every day and I was so stressed out! It took me some time to find ways to deal with that. Same goes for living alone – it took me a year to finally find ways to make life simpler and less stressful. So nope, i wont say i handled it perfectly. But what is perfect and normal anyway?? The important thing is what i feel and no one can take that away from me.

What do you think?

Moon