Dear Jack:

I wish it wasn’t so, but I enjoyed watching her beat my sister up. I enjoyed it vicariously and before that I know I beat my sister myself, i remember only once, but I was told I did and I regret it very much. Poor little girl, beaten, her innocence betrayed by me. I betrayed that little girl innocence and dependence on me. I was, am six years older than her. That day she was maybe one or two, i was eight or so. I remember her face and those eyes and it pains me so. It pains me very much.
anita