Hey jack. Forum addiction. No different to Facebook addiction or thst kind of thing.

It’s a basic need to connect and here yiu ate very validated and that’s addictive. To be heard. Nothing wrong with that.

I’ve been working on scientific experiments on the outside world relating to connection. I have to push myself to strive for what I want and break down my inner barriers or otherwise they’ll never change. They’re just habits after all. Or old defence mechanisms I don’t need any more but don’t know how to work outside of.

For confidence I’ve been saying. The next I speak to I’m going to give them my absolute full attention. I’m asking questions and really listening. Like here but out there. How scary out of ten was that? 7 because my mind keeps wandering back to how I’m feeling. Reel the mind pomp and concentrate. … so I’ve been having real conversations. It’s hard but very rewarding. Once that becomes second nature I want to experiment on talking slower ad I’m convinced no one’s really intersTed in me so I talk fast to save their boredom. That’s my next experiment. Fear level 9 out of ten. To be do continued…