Hi Mermaid,

You are either clinically depressed, have PTSD and/or are experiencing a Dark Night of the Soul.

I had the Dark Night of the Soul and it was horrific, terrible, and awful. But believe it or not, one day I woke up and suddenly felt… Fine!! I hadn’t read anything, ate anything, done anything or thought anything to get out of it. Just the way I had done nothing to get into it. It was the Soul working things out on its own level.

Emotions: We feel what we feel. An indicator that something is right or wrong in our lives, at the end of the day, that’s all it is: a feeling. And I don’t do it all the time, but meditation is better than a kick in the azz. LOL. At some point, why feel bad if you can feel good? As you’ve seen, the bad will always be waiting for you. :/

Now… If you are missing that element of spiritual community in your life, a Unitarian church or a Buddhist temple might be of interest to you.

Best,

Inky