I really hope you followed Anita’s advice and have ended this. I have also been in relationships like this–quit waiting for the perfect time to end this, even if you have booked or bought Christmas or have New Years plans. You will just make new bad memories and keep yourself from connecting to positive experiences you could be having even alone.
I was so hurt by a turmoil of bad relationships that I was alone for 3 years. I do not regret what I learned in that time but if I hadn’t been so low (and had to let go of so much anger and replays of what I could have done differently. U can never say anything so wise to an @hole that they are suddenly enlightened. You can only value your self and change your situation.
I love to take off and roam the deserted beach on the islands in the area–its not safe to go alone–so I would put up with my x partner so I could enjoy nature–I wasn’t enjoying it while he was cussing and ruining the view. I took an adventure working for a shrimp boat captain who I lived with. Hard work to see dolphins and waves. I learned I was capable of so much–but he complained about everything non stop.
I understand wanting to share outdoors/time with someone. Please don’t wait as many years as I did……as I became older I started having panic attacks regretting my choices. sooner or later physical violence will probably come from men who yell and curse….its emotional violence regardless.