Dear Kelly:

My answer is in the thread I started today “On guilt and Innocence”- inspired by your posts on this thread! To get rid of past hurts, you have to go into the past and free the child part of you that is held captive there. The child part of you is held captive in the past because of a deal that you made there, a deal you have to be released from. The deal you made as a child was something like this: I give you, mother (and/ or father) my innocence and take your guilt so that you will “love” me.

You wrote that you feel guilty, that you take the fault- that is the deal you made as a child and you are still keeping that deal. Keeping this deal depresses you and it keeps hurting you. To undo the deal, which was made when you were a child, you have to go back into the past and release the child-you from that deal.

Read the thread and let me know if you get what i am writing here.
anita