I spent five years and deep down maybe new we weren’t compatible but we were infatuated with each other and on some level “loved” each other, but argued constantly. We tried to make things work for years and then it kind of blew-up. It wasn’t until the end that I realized, “Okay, we’re clearly not compatible and I need to walk away (well I didn’t have much choice since he’s the one who technically left in the first place).

People always say, “You’re a pretty girl.” “You’ll find someone eventually.” “You’re such a nice person, why are you single?” I can’t answer these questions because I’ve tried and literally gave online dating 110% of my energy and effort and didn’t find a meaningful, long-lasting relationship with a SINGLE person out of everyone I messaged with and dated.

Sure, I can sit back and chill out and do my thing. Ask me where I’ll be in 10 years. Most likely still single without a partner who cares about me.

This isn’t like a test where you can study, put forth your greatest effort, and then be rewarded with the love of your life. This is a complete crapshoot and, like I said, sometimes I believe I’m going to leave the “dating casino” empty-handed or more broke than I was when I came in.