Hi Ritu,
I so sympathise with you. And don’t feel stupid. I’m an intelligent woman and it told me years to realise I was being lied to and my partner had another life…(as a gambling addict)
It’s been two years since i left him and I had to do No Contact, otherwise I would have caved in.
What I’ve learned is that whoever he’d been with, and this applies to yours too, he would have acted this way. It’s NOT personal. It’s hard to take but it’s nothing to do with you. He’s a weak and unconscious person who can only act from his level…and his level is very low. He may have some lovely qualities which you will miss dreadfully, but you will get through this a wiser person…and you will find a much better man! Don’t settle for lies and deceit.
Just be prepared to be very sad for a while, but go through it, you’ve got to feel it, but try to observe yourself feeling sad, angry etc, rather than be overwhelmed by it. Don’t repress either.
All this is from experience. You’ve got a mountain to climb’ but the view from the top is wonderful .Sending prayers and good wishes..