Hello to both Jenny and Kerrie!

I am so very grateful that you each have found value in my posts. Knowing that there are others out there feeling these intense emotions and going through similar situations helps me feel less lonely. Jenny, I feel like your point of view might be similar to the one on the other side of my story, I know it must be just as hard.

I really appreciate both of you for reaching out, and I hope to hear more from you soon.

This morning I saw a new therapist, I had seen one occasionally over the past few months but I felt she wasn’t able to offer me the guidance and comfort I was hoping for. This new one is very kind, and I spent most of our session today going in depth about my story. I choked up at times retelling the details, but in the end it helped to express those emotions verbally to someone new who had no bias. It was almost as therapeutic as this website is for me! She told me it was strong of me to give it the fight I did, and that I did everything I could without walking away too early. I shouldn’t feel like I gave up the fight, because I had incredible patience and love throughout the journey. It was nice to hear that encouragement.

Since leaving her office and being at work, I’ve allowed myself to just be sad. I am doing my best to not entertain any what ifs or hypotheticals today, just simply letting myself feel what I need to… and it feels oddly good for me. When I think about the next time we will talk, what she is doing right now, or when and if we’ll ever get together again – I feel my heart ache.

None of that torture today though. Just feeling natural human emotion.

Thank you all again. Feel free to use this thread as a means to express any thoughts you might be having. I hope it can serve as a place for sound advice and information to anyone going through this kind of break up.