Thank you to all of the supportive people who replied to this post. I wanted to update you.

I ended up speaking with my boyfriend, and as you can predict, he helped massively. He calmed my nerves, explaining that the things I think and feel are natural, and then asked me what I thought could break us up. When I told him, he clarified things. How proud he is of me, how he knows his anxiety can be difficult and irrational, but its not about me, and how we can work through things together.

For anyone else who’s ever felt what I feel, talking to the source is always the best way. I feel significantly more relaxed 🙂