Hi Anita,

Thanks for that and yes, I see the twist of reality as well. I see what he has done/ is doing is wrong and the lies and deceit, there are so many warning signs telling me to end this, but for some reason I cannot find the courage and I don’t know whether it’s because I’m scared of doing the wrong thing or because I feel that there could be a chance… when I ended it with him before I was strong and sure, but for some reason now I feel really uncertain and just unable to make a decision. I’m doubting myself, I don’t know how to be sure of what to do?

Thanks Inky, yes I felt that after he got so defensive that it was because he had something to hide, after all if he did not, then why did he not just take the call in front of me? He said he should be allowed to not take a call if he doesn’t want to, which again was making out like I was trying to tell him what to do.

I guess the thing is, after her opened up I said I would give him a chance- so feel it would be wrong to end it again without really giving it a go? I have so many different thoughts and feelings going around in my head I am just finding it impossible, I feel like I am incapable of making a decision, I feel like I can’t trust my feelings, I don’t know if what I am feeling is real or if I am fooling myself into feeling or thinking something, I’m questioning everything I think and feel and it’s just left me so confused!