Anita,
I wanted to give you a few updates. I have spoken to my mom. Told her that yes, I NEED ATTENTION, and that my mental health was spiralling down. She finally heard me and had compassion. And is willing to help me. So I feel much better now. I think in this side things will get better. At least I hope and now she knows the dimension of the whole issue with me.
Now with ex-the only step I have to take, and am having a hard time to, is to forgive myself for having left him. This is holding me back so badly. I still feel regreat, though I rationally am well aware that he’s far from perfect…SO this is where I am at right now.