Dear Anita,

I am doing all right.

I am glad to report that I am back to walking and jogging. I won’t be running for a while though.

I’ve been feeling sick since last week and that has left me with very little energy to do much. That, coupled with the severe insomnia from the past few weeks has finally caught up to me. I am feeling utterly exhausted. All I want to do is sleep! I find myself sleeping in every time I get the chance, and I’ve been going to sleep very early for almost a week.

Unfortunately, for the first time ever, I missed a due date for a homework assignment. I felt upset about that, and I started doubting my ability to get an A in that course. I’ve been so tired that I have little motivation to do school work. I just keep wanting to put it all off until the last minute. I couldn’t be bothered to do school work. I feel that perhaps in a week I might feel better, but right not I feel like I am drowning in quick sand when it comes to energy and motivation. I find that I had been pressuring myself to do a lot, and that stress of trying to get ahead is not helping my anxiety, energy or motivation.

I find myself realizing that I am intimidated and that my anxiety flares up when there are teenagers around, high school age I’d say. Perhaps this is because I see how cruel and criticizing they can be. Or maybe it’s just my bad experiences from high school. I feel under extreme stress when I am around teenagers whether in line at the store, or anywhere really. I feel like hiding and just avoiding them forever.