that could be it now that you say it like that. like maybe i’m masking the truth with fear. i had to think on it for a while and come back, but i still can’t really tell the difference. the difference between my fears, the truth and reality. the main thing i’ve been focusing on is that guy i was telling you about. that’s really the only thing i can seem to focus on. i don’t have much else to besides homework. other than that there’s nothing going on with my life. so he’s basically an obsession of mine just naturally. i don’t know what to do about it. besides worrying about if he likes me or if he even remembers me, i have no idea whatelse to do with my life. i can’t focus on much and i’ve been so afraid lately that all i’ve done was overeat (something i REALLY hate to do just in general is to eat). i just don’t feel like there’s anything to my life. i know i should be happy that i’m alive and in one piece and working, but i just feel like there are things that are missing.