Thank you all so much for the wise advice. Anita I can relate but I don’t want to be younger by keeping a younger body. I just am afraid to be judged and rejected and abandoned. That is something I need to face. My body doesn’t represent my worth, easier said than done. As for healthy eating, it is all relative. I am underweight according to the BMI and I diet, because I was brought up that way and that is all I know. I must watch watch what I eat. I eat a lot of low calorie items and artificial sweetener so it is all relative. Not sure someone would look at me and think I glow or I am healthy. Perhaps I need to feel good inside before my behaviors change to reflect my outside?