Thanks anita;) You are the most encouraging and uplifting person ever;) you are a great friend who is always there;) sometimes when i feel stressed, i explore science and neuroscience, biology and chemistry since i have a passion for them. also my two ap english friends are great at helping with school subjects, yet there are times when they team up against me. however, i always have my lunch buddy who encourages me to do well in school and helps me. today, i was a bit stressed after physics honors when the A team girl told me that i would never pass physics honors and never be healthy. i went home to drop off my school stuff and decided to take slow jog (yog) around the neighborhood (3 miles) to clear my head and look at nature. A half mile into my yog, i spotted my special friend walking home from sports practice (he plays hockey) and we smiled at each other. he continued on his way, but at a slower pace so i could catch up with him. he saw from my expression that i was stressed and he asked me what was wrong, when i told him that there were times when i wasn’t sure i was going to do well this semester or get into the college i wanted to or ever be truly healthy. i told him that i was out to clear my mind since i had so many doubts about myself. he was a great listener and told me that i was smart, that i was good enough and that i would make it through in whatever i did because there is no one like me with that much energy and spirit in life. he told me that sometimes he feels insecure about himself compared to others, faces criticism from others like i do and there are times when he doubts that he is good enough for anyone or that anyone cares about him as well. yet, seeing me around gives him hope that there is someone looking out for him as seeing him also gives me hope that someone is here for me. i am working on improving my grades in physics honors which is 79.3 and i wish i could understand the material more easily, but the teacher doesn’t explain things in much detail and it can be hard to connect ideas at times to their concepts. i am working on improving my circulation (red, cracked hands during the winter), acne and eyesight. i am thinking of using reiki, buddha and the angels to help me. i think my immune system and metabolism has gotten stronger so i’ve had some success. i need to get back to meditation because it helps me have more mental clarity and these days my mind seems to be in a haze and i have doubts about healing. i think it is an attribute from school work, the pressure of my parents, competition at school and my conflicting emotions about my special friend. i know that i love him, but there are times when i wonder if it is not just spiritual, but also physical love as well. we both tend to deny the fact that we might also share a physical bond because we think that out social circles don’t connect. he and i both feel that we’re both too high above each other like the song “high Above me” i think we need to work out our insecurities.