Dear Saxsia:

You sound positive and indeed hopeful in your post above. Feelings are like the weather: they change. It is wonderful when you are calm and it will not last. The … good news about feelings changing is that when you feel very anxious- that too will not last: that too will change. Part of a mindful meditation I did and still do (only a few minutes ago) is when you feel anxiousness, you pay attention: where in the body do you feel it? Do you feel heat? pressure in your chest? A feeling like vomiting? Feel it, be in that sensation and observe/ feel it lessen, increase, change… and so you learn, over time, to endure uncomfortable feeling, trusting in them changing… and trusting that you will survive them yet again without automatically reacting to them.

When you learn to endure those feelings without automatically reacting with destructive behaviors, you build trust in yourself and that is priceless!

Please do post again, anytime!

anita