Dear Nan:

This is most amazing to me, amazing to me that I thought about it yesterday, recently, before reading your above post and before knowing there are problems with the getting together with R-1 on his side.

I was thinking about Francesca: was it all about Robert, about the love affair of 4 days with Robert? I don’t think so. She wanted to be alone when her husband and kids were away because she was already stuck in r role that was not good for her well being. She was already not herself, not true to herself. Robert just made her FEEL how it could be if she was true to herself, if she lived more than that role she was living. And her daughter, at the end of the movie, decided, as a result of reading her mother’s account, to separate from her husband- without having another man to replace the husband with.

In your case, reading from the other thread or threads about your marriage, the history and all, you wrote that there is something wrong and has been something wrong for the longest time, if not from the very beginning, with your second marriage, your marriage to R-2.

So to be true to yourself, in theory (I know it is very difficult), I can see you opening that truck door just so to get out!

It doesn’t have to be R-2 waiting for you outside the truck. In that car in front.

There is so much more to the movie, to your story, but I need to stop here so that I can get your input, after all you are the protagonist of your own story!

anita