Thank you all so much for your replies

@anita

@Matty

@Inky

@dreaming715

I not sure, but I’ve always felt online dating wasn’t my thing. Well definitely not at this stage anyway.

Think it is so true with:
What you need to do is trust in your decisions and beliefs. Don’t go back and try again if all you desire is not to be lonely. It is in a lonesome time that we develop our understanding of who we are.

I do need to trust myself, I often have a gut feeling of things, but I don’t want to do it because it’s hard, or it is painful etc. which relates to what @dreaming715 mentioned, especially the acceptance bit.

Maybe I just need to learn to accept me, and to accept how life is at the moment rather than pushing against and trying to have things run my way. It is not like something I can control/change anyway like ordering a meal. I just have to let it be and trust right?

But thanks for sharing all of that. Just can’t believe it sometimes when what you had envisioned years ago is now so different.