hi anita

i see u r very clear in ur interpretations.

information management is a term i coined as i felt its not as dark as plain lying and it has to b managed. till now i have mnged it without being discovered. i judged myself harshly i think and watever i dont find GOOD or PRESENTABLE i simply edit them. it causes problems to me. it has become an oppurtunistic habit now. so now i want to accept myself completely.

peppermint

i was openning up to my last girlfriend…she was too supportive and was patient wid it. she wanted me to accept me wid all my flaws and fears…i tried but cud open up only25 percent to her. the deep things they are burried too deep…and need lot of courage to come out.. i m struggling here. next step i think..is presenting my authentic self to whom so ever i meet now… a new beginning with new ppl. but the problem still lies tht i dont accept myself completely.. dont kno my internal desires ad wants. i hav functioned socially all my life with a very adaptive personality.

hi barberi,

goals are good ..but i want my goals to b alligned internally. no more want to chase goals which enhnce my social worth like status power or money.. i did tht.. there is an exam in india called IAS most prestigious. wrote tht twice but missed by a whishker both times. now i m in a flux do i really want it..or look at it as a one stop solution for my vulnerable identity problem. i m creative by nature..so wanna rethink bfore i decide my goal.. it shudnt b on wht ppl think is grt career.

thank u all fr ur responses. i waiting for urs.