Anita..

A..I m in tht stage of life whr backround doesnt matter much but once achievements do.. So i hav made my peace wid tht..it was a problem in childhood which shaped my behaviour into the habit of ego projection and info management..and thats the problem.

B.. Because of ths habit..i crave fr appreciation and projext an image of self..which is unblemished..at times i myself start believing tht i m this only… Ths produces misalignment in my goals and yhe required efforts and i miss them.

I miss the goal as my focus always goes to being declared as the worth aspirant pf the goal by ppl..and not the goal itself. I love hearing he has a lot of potential arguement.

C.. I think my goals they are itself determined by my image or ego needs. They invaraibly point to recognition status prestige appreciation socially… So i want to confirm is it qat i really want frm inside.. Is ther a way.

Lastly. I hav taken 3 days out to figure out ths stuff..thts why the desperation and detailed info in the post. Please dont mind.

I m an analyzer .. I like this.