Thanks Anita for your wonderful efforts to understand and help… I know I’m repeating myself but it means a lot to me.

At least now, my parents have accepted their fault and agreed to co-operate with me henceforth. The other thing is, which is bothering me most… I cannot get a job so soon. Due to some issues (complicated and not relevant here) I had to leave college and have currently applied for elsewhere, and the crucial exam is in May. Not only is it a deciding factor for my career, but I also have to prove myself worthy of Jerry, to her family. As it is, the situation is dreadful and if I don’t make it now, there is very little hope to achieve my heart’s wish. I already wasted Jan-Feb due to depression and though I’m still disturbed due to our recent fight and her being upset with me, am trying to study thinking I’m doing it for her.

Once I get into college, I’ll be away from my grandma for most of the time and hopefully can get her used to me becoming independent. There remains the issue of Jerry getting married before I can get a job… or refusing to accept my feelings at all, out of fear. That’s clouding my mind and preventing me from studying well. Though my heart says all will be fine if only I do everything honestly and with sincere effort.